this is such a random topic lol who thinks of these random topics? or even thinks of people to write about for these random topics.
er. idk. cant remember. prob some girl who i met in china? ye her english name was oak o.o but she was nice =] i remember me, her and my cousin went out shopping in little boutiques that she knew about and had dinner at a jap place in a small streed somewhere =] had street food and nice mango icecream at an icecream parlour. that was a nice day. we added each other on msn but nothing much became of that. never spoketo her agn after that day lol
i cant think of anything else to write. this topic rlly is random.
Friday, August 27, 2010
day 26-the last person you made a pinky promise to
i remember this cleary. it was like 2 weeks ago, when we were hanging out at the mall food court after sport. chia got a text from a certain someone and i was so excited i wanted to reply for her. so she sed i could as long as i dont say anything retarded in her name. she made me pinky promise. i am a woman of my word. i kept my promise =D
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
day 25-the person you know that is going through the worst of times
there are always ppl i know that are going through bad times. but i love how after something bad happens, whether it be about school, people or other situations, that that same person can learn from their problems and be changed so much. i admire those people who arent afraid to face their problems and then if you look back on it later on, you realize how differently you thought about it then compared to now =] then you feel pity for your previous self lol
i know people who have problems but somehow they convinced themselves that there is absolutely no solution to it and that theyll just wallow in their own misery forever. WROOOOONG. BIG CROSS. just no.
there is ALWAYS a solution, but ppl dont see them or arent willing to give up some things for them. if it means that much to you, you will learn to compromise =] I BELIEVE IN YOU <3 hehe
of course when ppl go through hard times, i try to be there for them as much as they need me and let them know that i always will be there. cos i know how much that can mean.
i hope these problems will go away soon~~
i know people who have problems but somehow they convinced themselves that there is absolutely no solution to it and that theyll just wallow in their own misery forever. WROOOOONG. BIG CROSS. just no.
there is ALWAYS a solution, but ppl dont see them or arent willing to give up some things for them. if it means that much to you, you will learn to compromise =] I BELIEVE IN YOU <3 hehe
of course when ppl go through hard times, i try to be there for them as much as they need me and let them know that i always will be there. cos i know how much that can mean.
i hope these problems will go away soon~~
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
day 24-the person that gave you your favourite memory
there cant possibly be one single moment or person in my life that has been amazingly, tremendously awesome. cos there are heaps =]
no one person can give me a perfect moment and one time so i will list a few~~ <3
-when izzy, whitney and i enjoyed our many good memories at the park
-fireworks nights at nbps
-VA CAMP WOOOOOOO
-shopping. self explanatory.
-sleepovers
-sneaking out at 4am at lizzys sleepova to watch the sunrise. it was so worth it.
-711 bus memories =D i remember it would b 'the seedy bus' and all the convos were sick and twisted lol
-a few snapshots from my lovelife are definately there
-doing ballet with witnee at that church studio =D
-going overseas
-just hanging out ppl i love
no one person can give me a perfect moment and one time so i will list a few~~ <3
-when izzy, whitney and i enjoyed our many good memories at the park
-fireworks nights at nbps
-VA CAMP WOOOOOOO
-shopping. self explanatory.
-sleepovers
-sneaking out at 4am at lizzys sleepova to watch the sunrise. it was so worth it.
-711 bus memories =D i remember it would b 'the seedy bus' and all the convos were sick and twisted lol
-a few snapshots from my lovelife are definately there
-doing ballet with witnee at that church studio =D
-going overseas
-just hanging out ppl i love
Monday, August 23, 2010
day 23-the last person you kissed
william jin. period. we should all know this by now yes? lol agh alas there has been noone else =[ haha
speaking of kissing. i think it was jackie? but i was tlking with someone about kissing a guy with a tongue piercing haha its on my list of things to do before i die...if i get the chance ;]
the best kisses are either spontaneous, sweet or hot. but i doubt those amazing scences in movies like 'the notebook' rlly happen. the classic-kissing in the rain, against a wall, in the water(<3), when one of them is about to die lol or leaving for a long time, upside down (omg like in spiderman looool)...eeerm cant think of anymore. wouldnt the world b just that little bit beta if stuff like that happened more often? lol =D
Sunday, August 22, 2010
day 22-someone you want to give a second chance to
my blogs r getting repetetive cos i cant think of people for half of the topics lol but at leat im trying, u ppl, u started this challenge as well so finish it ye!
i dont wanna give a second chance to anyone cos i dont hate anyone that much ._. there is one person actually that couldve been a beta person before, but then again u cant change a person or wat they are. so it prob wont do much difference.
if something doesnt work for me, its cos i did something as well or that person is just the person they are and if anything happened then it was meant to be. or just happened. and its not like u can change it so ye. it would b gud if more bad stuff dint happen tho =]
i dont wanna give a second chance to anyone cos i dont hate anyone that much ._. there is one person actually that couldve been a beta person before, but then again u cant change a person or wat they are. so it prob wont do much difference.
if something doesnt work for me, its cos i did something as well or that person is just the person they are and if anything happened then it was meant to be. or just happened. and its not like u can change it so ye. it would b gud if more bad stuff dint happen tho =]
Saturday, August 21, 2010
day 21-someone you judged by their first impression
actually i dont remember judging anyone by their first impression, cos first impressions dont mean much to me if i get to see that person often. and for people i dont see often, well then i dont even rememebr their first impressions.
i cant even remember first impressions, the ones that i can are-
jackie. i met her in bowdens yr 7 english class cos we were both noob and didnt know wat to do with such a weird teacher lol
cindy. izzy introduced us in yr 7 and u had ur polite smile on haha
cathy. weird individual.
will. new kid on the 711, who happened to be shang as well =D
erin. cindy introduced u to us where we used to sit in that bench place beside the podium in the quad. i didnt believe her wen she sed u were in yr 7 too, i thought u looked like yr 9 or sumthin.
maria. you walked into a music lesson as part of the tour group for new students haha everyone was so anticipating seeing u and for the rest of the day i kept telling ppl that i saw this new maria girl. polite and shy u were lol i think we were a bit too enthusiastic =D
helen. in the canteen and i hear maria shouting 'LIZ LIZ LOOK, SHES KOREAAAAAAN!!!' and liz going 'oh, hi...o.o'
i dont remember any more, this has already taken a lot of brainstorming from me lol but i got to know these ppl beta and i neva actually 'judged' them by that first impression.
oh ye i remember now. BLOG PPL. hurry up and get to it.
i cant even remember first impressions, the ones that i can are-
jackie. i met her in bowdens yr 7 english class cos we were both noob and didnt know wat to do with such a weird teacher lol
cindy. izzy introduced us in yr 7 and u had ur polite smile on haha
cathy. weird individual.
will. new kid on the 711, who happened to be shang as well =D
erin. cindy introduced u to us where we used to sit in that bench place beside the podium in the quad. i didnt believe her wen she sed u were in yr 7 too, i thought u looked like yr 9 or sumthin.
maria. you walked into a music lesson as part of the tour group for new students haha everyone was so anticipating seeing u and for the rest of the day i kept telling ppl that i saw this new maria girl. polite and shy u were lol i think we were a bit too enthusiastic =D
helen. in the canteen and i hear maria shouting 'LIZ LIZ LOOK, SHES KOREAAAAAAN!!!' and liz going 'oh, hi...o.o'
i dont remember any more, this has already taken a lot of brainstorming from me lol but i got to know these ppl beta and i neva actually 'judged' them by that first impression.
oh ye i remember now. BLOG PPL. hurry up and get to it.
Whip It
as i type im listening to the ending credits of the movie whip it, directed by drew barrymore. rlly i havent watched such an entertaining movie in a long long time =D
its just the perfect balance of feel good, predictability, unpredictability and sweet teenage love. not too corny tho.
its about this girl and her roller-derby adventures. but the way the movie is made, its all so original and the music complements everything so well. i love it so much im downloading the soundtrack (Y) ellen page (Juno) is the main girl and i hafta say she was so much better to watch in this than in Juno. shes just so lovable and dorky at the beginning its the cutest thing <3
plus, roller-derby is a fast, dangerous contact sport and the way these girls play with their fishnets and crop tops would probably make it entertaining for guys to watch as well ;] plus, the guy is like wow *swoon. and the way the main character deals with him in the end is just hilarious. it all feels relatable in some way, especially to teenage girls but is frikin entertaining at the same time. i found myself getting into it heaps and getting all worked up watching them smash each other on the skating rink lol
ten out of ten.
its so epic. i prob wouldnt give a movie like this ten, if you just base if on the descriptions ppl give you, but its such a different kind of movie. the style is so alternate, but...fiesty i guess lol great movie =D
Friday, August 20, 2010
day 20 -the one that broke your heart the hardest
Alright this is never a merry topic lol u may or may not know this person. actually u prob dont lol but its beta if u dont anyway. so its all gud.
this person. hmmm. well. to describe this person, id say that this person meant a lot to me. and still does. technically it was them, but they didnt even know half the time that they were causing me pain. i guess thats y it hurt more-the fact that they didnt even know they were doing it. i know that i was purposely pushing the fact that i was in pain, away. because i didnt wanna make wat was happening any more harder than it already was. god, ive changed on the inside so much since that. that person, did things, said little things that to me, was just painful to watch. this is hard to describe without actually saying what it was lol at times i told myself to stop being ridiculous and stand up for myself like the obvious thing to do. the way they acted around people and to me, wouldn't have meant much to most people, but i thought i could trust that person. now that i think about it, that person didnt give me the respect i think i deserved back then. and i say that confidentally, not sounding vain because i know fully that its true. that person took me for granted one too many times, even unconsciously or subtly, but hey when someone takes you for granted like that, u notice. they didnt do things that could be called 'mean' but just stuff that made my self confidence fall so much. while i knew this person, stuff just kept coming and information was flowing in from all sides. someone i hardly even knew told me something that just made me want to fall apart for a while. the mountain of reasons why i 'highly disliked' this person just kept piling up and it was pretty shaky. logically, if u keep piling something up like that it will fall and break. and ye it broke.
It broke hard, i remember one particular afternoon and what happened. There were other people who tried to be there for me and I thank them for trying. It was so much better that I had people there for me than just sitting there alone.
The one that broke my heart the hardest eh…well its hard to categorize it like that cos when I think of hearts breaking, I think of love and boy meets girl, but im not sure it was exactly like that? Lol ye…of course I do blame that person for what happened but nothing is never 100% one sided, so I was at fault too. One gud thing I can say that happened from this was that it taught me some pretty important lessons and it was definitely a learning experience.
The point is. Im not gonna forget this. Who knows, theres prob gonna be someone in the future who does something worse and they can claim the title and this person will be set free. If uve never had ur so called ‘heart broken’ then you rlly are lucky. Cos man it sucks lol not to sound corny, but I was in pain for a while and it just feels like…I guess it wasn’t heart break then cos it didn’t feel like what ppl say-like ur entire body is about to collapse and you cant sleep or face it properly. Still it was as if there was a permanent weight on ur conscience that u know wont go away and it slowly starts making everything negative-sometimes all I wanted to do was hold something tight and lie on my bed. Lol it sounds pretty pathetic if u haven’t felt it or seen it but trust me ull know what im talking about when it happens to you. I hope it doesn’t tho <3
this person. hmmm. well. to describe this person, id say that this person meant a lot to me. and still does. technically it was them, but they didnt even know half the time that they were causing me pain. i guess thats y it hurt more-the fact that they didnt even know they were doing it. i know that i was purposely pushing the fact that i was in pain, away. because i didnt wanna make wat was happening any more harder than it already was. god, ive changed on the inside so much since that. that person, did things, said little things that to me, was just painful to watch. this is hard to describe without actually saying what it was lol at times i told myself to stop being ridiculous and stand up for myself like the obvious thing to do. the way they acted around people and to me, wouldn't have meant much to most people, but i thought i could trust that person. now that i think about it, that person didnt give me the respect i think i deserved back then. and i say that confidentally, not sounding vain because i know fully that its true. that person took me for granted one too many times, even unconsciously or subtly, but hey when someone takes you for granted like that, u notice. they didnt do things that could be called 'mean' but just stuff that made my self confidence fall so much. while i knew this person, stuff just kept coming and information was flowing in from all sides. someone i hardly even knew told me something that just made me want to fall apart for a while. the mountain of reasons why i 'highly disliked' this person just kept piling up and it was pretty shaky. logically, if u keep piling something up like that it will fall and break. and ye it broke.
It broke hard, i remember one particular afternoon and what happened. There were other people who tried to be there for me and I thank them for trying. It was so much better that I had people there for me than just sitting there alone.
The one that broke my heart the hardest eh…well its hard to categorize it like that cos when I think of hearts breaking, I think of love and boy meets girl, but im not sure it was exactly like that? Lol ye…of course I do blame that person for what happened but nothing is never 100% one sided, so I was at fault too. One gud thing I can say that happened from this was that it taught me some pretty important lessons and it was definitely a learning experience.
The point is. Im not gonna forget this. Who knows, theres prob gonna be someone in the future who does something worse and they can claim the title and this person will be set free. If uve never had ur so called ‘heart broken’ then you rlly are lucky. Cos man it sucks lol not to sound corny, but I was in pain for a while and it just feels like…I guess it wasn’t heart break then cos it didn’t feel like what ppl say-like ur entire body is about to collapse and you cant sleep or face it properly. Still it was as if there was a permanent weight on ur conscience that u know wont go away and it slowly starts making everything negative-sometimes all I wanted to do was hold something tight and lie on my bed. Lol it sounds pretty pathetic if u haven’t felt it or seen it but trust me ull know what im talking about when it happens to you. I hope it doesn’t tho <3
day 19-someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
if i actually think about this one, id hafta say there were a few people. but the one i can talk about is. slutgirl. aka cathy zhang.
pesters is a strong word. id say always happens to pop up in my mind wen i see things taht are just classic cathy style. like va. agh va, the memories...
wheneva someone does something oddly stupid i think of cathy hahaha it just happens. i cant help it. but its hilarious wen it does happen cos i start laughing to myself and sigh.
pesters is a strong word. id say always happens to pop up in my mind wen i see things taht are just classic cathy style. like va. agh va, the memories...
wheneva someone does something oddly stupid i think of cathy hahaha it just happens. i cant help it. but its hilarious wen it does happen cos i start laughing to myself and sigh.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
day 18-the person that you wish you could be
Theres obviously the perfect person scenario, perfect personality, perfect friends, perfect family, perfect love life, perfect grades in school, perfect relationship with siblings. but that person doesn’t exist in me, or many people in general actually. Because perfect is subjective and once we reach it, therell be something else missing.
sometimes i wonder if i was in someone else’s position, meeting myself for the first time, would i like me? There are times when i know i definitely would not like me, i would probably highly dislike me lol
dear me,
i wish i could have less split ends. I wish my temper would stop getting in the way. I wish i could be more confident about myself. I wish i had frikin fabulous skin forever and ever. I wish i would stop procrastinating when i really shouldn’t be. I wish i had no problems whatsoever in school. I wish i had unlimited amounts of money. I wish i actually liked my brother. i wish i could go out whenever for whatever time. I wish i was the kind of person who is highly ambitious and self-dependant. I wish i had heaps of connections. I wish i could be myself all the time. i wish i didn’t get nervous about things like speeches and performances and interviews. I wish i could get along with anyone fine. I wish i could give more back to people. I wish i could keep doing ballet. I wish i hadn’t stopped right before i was going on pointe-that rlly annoys me. I wish i had more time for myself. I wish i wouldn’t be afraid of stuff like rollercoasters and horror movies. I wish sometimes i could be more ladylike lol i wish i could be the kind of person that always stood up for themselves. I wish i could stop impulse buying things that i regret buying later. I WISH I COULD STOP BEING LATE FOR SCHOOL EVERYDAY LOL
Wow thats a long list. But its not even half of what i wish i could be. I sound so demanding haha but its true =[ ill b happy if any number of those things came true.
sometimes i wonder if i was in someone else’s position, meeting myself for the first time, would i like me? There are times when i know i definitely would not like me, i would probably highly dislike me lol
dear me,
i wish i could have less split ends. I wish my temper would stop getting in the way. I wish i could be more confident about myself. I wish i had frikin fabulous skin forever and ever. I wish i would stop procrastinating when i really shouldn’t be. I wish i had no problems whatsoever in school. I wish i had unlimited amounts of money. I wish i actually liked my brother. i wish i could go out whenever for whatever time. I wish i was the kind of person who is highly ambitious and self-dependant. I wish i had heaps of connections. I wish i could be myself all the time. i wish i didn’t get nervous about things like speeches and performances and interviews. I wish i could get along with anyone fine. I wish i could give more back to people. I wish i could keep doing ballet. I wish i hadn’t stopped right before i was going on pointe-that rlly annoys me. I wish i had more time for myself. I wish i wouldn’t be afraid of stuff like rollercoasters and horror movies. I wish sometimes i could be more ladylike lol i wish i could be the kind of person that always stood up for themselves. I wish i could stop impulse buying things that i regret buying later. I WISH I COULD STOP BEING LATE FOR SCHOOL EVERYDAY LOL
Wow thats a long list. But its not even half of what i wish i could be. I sound so demanding haha but its true =[ ill b happy if any number of those things came true.
day 17-someone from your childhood
There were plenty of people in my childhood. Heaps of them are still here. But i remember that when i was in Kindy, when my mum and i first came to Australia, i went to Summer Hill Public School. It surprises me that no one knows where that is. Its actually just next to Ashfield. Well being the asian kid i was that couldn’t speak much english, i had an asian best friend. I cant even remember her name lol but i do remember i did everything at school with her and she was my best friend back when i was a 5 year old =] i also remember my teacher, Mrs Meldrum who was a really gud teacher. Believe it or not i was a rebel and a firkin pain wen i was 5. Stole stuff and interrupted people and would not stop talking while the teacher was talking. Mrs Meldrum somehow made me a nice little child and i guess shes a big reason i am the way i am now. I always said to myself that i would go back and visit that school and my teacher, but as i got older, the thought just drifted further and further away from my mind. It would be gud to go back there and see everything again, if shes still teaching there =]
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
day 16-someone that’s not in your state/country
I would’ve sed my cousin, but ive already blogged bout her. Hmmmm someone else. Would be. Eh.
well the other time, wen i was looking for nice gumboots to buy, i was searching online and i saw these pretty lil marc Jacobs collection ones. They were just simple and block coloured in a rainbow of colours. And omg it was frikin $38. Ignore the fact that its marc Jacobs and gud quality, most fashion gumboots are more than $38 these days. I was so happy <333 so i immediately started looking for a store in Sydney but lo and behold they don’t have marc Jacobs. OR AUSTRALIA. I was so annoyed and upset. Ye have them in America and all other countries, but firkin Australia is such a loner island in the corner of the world, that marc Jacobs doesn’t notice us and set up stores to sell his gumboots here. Screw Australia. Aaaagh.
Speaking of Australia being a loner island, where is FOREER 21?!?! If only...so many brands and labels and products that Australia misses out on. Don’t even start on internet.
Just not cool >=[
well the other time, wen i was looking for nice gumboots to buy, i was searching online and i saw these pretty lil marc Jacobs collection ones. They were just simple and block coloured in a rainbow of colours. And omg it was frikin $38. Ignore the fact that its marc Jacobs and gud quality, most fashion gumboots are more than $38 these days. I was so happy <333 so i immediately started looking for a store in Sydney but lo and behold they don’t have marc Jacobs. OR AUSTRALIA. I was so annoyed and upset. Ye have them in America and all other countries, but firkin Australia is such a loner island in the corner of the world, that marc Jacobs doesn’t notice us and set up stores to sell his gumboots here. Screw Australia. Aaaagh.
Speaking of Australia being a loner island, where is FOREER 21?!?! If only...so many brands and labels and products that Australia misses out on. Don’t even start on internet.
Just not cool >=[
Monday, August 16, 2010
wat is this. how come this neva happens? eh??
1. Get kissed in the rain
2. Have that one hot kiss where your pressed against the wall
3. Have a guy that thinks you’re the world
4. Have a guy that holds on as long as possible when giving hugs
5. A boy that whispers he loves you in your ear
6. Have that moment where you just gaze into each others eyes
7. When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
8. When you’re not with your guy he’s all that you can think about
9. Wearing his jacket and every time you breath in, his scent surrounds you
10. A guy who will watch any movie with you, no matter how teary eyed you may get.
11. A guy who squeezes your hand
12. A boy that says he loves you and means it
13. A guy that will play her favorite song outside her window
14. A guy who is loyal
15. A guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it.
16. A guy that will kiss you on the forehead.
17. A guy that will call you beautiful or adorable…not hot, fine, or sexy
18. A guy that will never judge you for how you look.
19. A boy that says cheezy stuff to you just to make u smile
20. A boy that is the same when he is with you and when with friends
21. A boy that tells you everything honestly
22. A boy that is good with your family and introduces you to his family
23. A guy that will always let you win
24. A guy who stands up for you no matter who it is against
25. A guy who calls you at night just to say ‘hi’ and see how your day has been
26. A boy who tells you that your smile makes his day and makes everything better
27. A boy who will sit on the phone with you when you’re sad, even if you’re quiet
28. A boy who you can hangout and have fun with
29. A boy that will just randomly call you for no reason at all, just because he missed you
30. A guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life.
31. A guy who would love you forever no matter the circumstance.
32. A guy who wouldn’t mind you wanting to get all dressed up and do your make up for him. Even if he says he likes you better without make up.
33. A guy who you can be yourself with and he will never give a care and would still tell you that you are amazing to him.
34. A guy who runs his fingers through your hair, like he’s washing your worries/troubles away.
2. Have that one hot kiss where your pressed against the wall
3. Have a guy that thinks you’re the world
4. Have a guy that holds on as long as possible when giving hugs
5. A boy that whispers he loves you in your ear
6. Have that moment where you just gaze into each others eyes
7. When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
8. When you’re not with your guy he’s all that you can think about
9. Wearing his jacket and every time you breath in, his scent surrounds you
10. A guy who will watch any movie with you, no matter how teary eyed you may get.
11. A guy who squeezes your hand
12. A boy that says he loves you and means it
13. A guy that will play her favorite song outside her window
14. A guy who is loyal
15. A guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it.
16. A guy that will kiss you on the forehead.
17. A guy that will call you beautiful or adorable…not hot, fine, or sexy
18. A guy that will never judge you for how you look.
19. A boy that says cheezy stuff to you just to make u smile
20. A boy that is the same when he is with you and when with friends
21. A boy that tells you everything honestly
22. A boy that is good with your family and introduces you to his family
23. A guy that will always let you win
24. A guy who stands up for you no matter who it is against
25. A guy who calls you at night just to say ‘hi’ and see how your day has been
26. A boy who tells you that your smile makes his day and makes everything better
27. A boy who will sit on the phone with you when you’re sad, even if you’re quiet
28. A boy who you can hangout and have fun with
29. A boy that will just randomly call you for no reason at all, just because he missed you
30. A guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life.
31. A guy who would love you forever no matter the circumstance.
32. A guy who wouldn’t mind you wanting to get all dressed up and do your make up for him. Even if he says he likes you better without make up.
33. A guy who you can be yourself with and he will never give a care and would still tell you that you are amazing to him.
34. A guy who runs his fingers through your hair, like he’s washing your worries/troubles away.
day 15-the person you miss the most
i miss my auntie and my cousin in chinaaaaa T^T i really do *sniff we were TIGHT man, they were so awesome. still are.
like i sed, my cousin is like a sister that could easily replace my bro lol no problem. my auntie is like, one of those easy breezy happy go lucky ppl who does NOT force my cousin to goto coaching. in fact they goto the same art classes lol theyre like sisters its amazing. my auntie is the coolest adult i know. frikin shame they live in china >.>
wen i was over there, my auntie like just bumped me and i sed ow and shes like oh oops and proceeds to go 'sorry sorry sorry sorry' with the hand actions from the song sorry sorry by superjunior. she is cool lol she is the most caring, altruistic, open-minded person i know, let alone adult. shes the one that i goto for gud azn dramas to watch haha and shes usually always right about them. dude she introduced me to boys before flowers lol she is so extremely open and her sense of humour is at a level that anyone can get along with. sometimes i dont think shes an adult at all lol srsly she acts like a kid, but in a gud way =]
and she also has a ds. enough said.
my cousin is just my cousin because she is cool. or maybe she is cool because she is my cousin. idk. either way, we bond and talk about all the things sisters talk about. its hilarious wen i talk to her about guys and i end up giving her tips. shes a 12 yr old haha but its just these funny life lessons that make the best memories. i guess the age gap is enough that she looks up to me about stuff and i definately will be there to warn her about mistakes ive made haha and the shortcuts in life :D
and so im sitting here typing this, missing them, and wondering is the next time i will see them...=[ i hope it will be soon.
like i sed, my cousin is like a sister that could easily replace my bro lol no problem. my auntie is like, one of those easy breezy happy go lucky ppl who does NOT force my cousin to goto coaching. in fact they goto the same art classes lol theyre like sisters its amazing. my auntie is the coolest adult i know. frikin shame they live in china >.>
wen i was over there, my auntie like just bumped me and i sed ow and shes like oh oops and proceeds to go 'sorry sorry sorry sorry' with the hand actions from the song sorry sorry by superjunior. she is cool lol she is the most caring, altruistic, open-minded person i know, let alone adult. shes the one that i goto for gud azn dramas to watch haha and shes usually always right about them. dude she introduced me to boys before flowers lol she is so extremely open and her sense of humour is at a level that anyone can get along with. sometimes i dont think shes an adult at all lol srsly she acts like a kid, but in a gud way =]
and she also has a ds. enough said.
my cousin is just my cousin because she is cool. or maybe she is cool because she is my cousin. idk. either way, we bond and talk about all the things sisters talk about. its hilarious wen i talk to her about guys and i end up giving her tips. shes a 12 yr old haha but its just these funny life lessons that make the best memories. i guess the age gap is enough that she looks up to me about stuff and i definately will be there to warn her about mistakes ive made haha and the shortcuts in life :D
and so im sitting here typing this, missing them, and wondering is the next time i will see them...=[ i hope it will be soon.
day 14-someone you’ve drifted away from
i feel like ive drifted away from someone but then when we get time to b our awesome selves again, together, it feels like nothings changed =] i think that if someone really is a gud friend, even after a long time apart or not talking for ages just cos u didnt, shouldnt change anything wen u finally end up getting together agn. all my true friends i can bond with no matter how long its been, and everything would be exactly the same as before and i would be reminded of y im such gud friends with this person =D
i love that feeling of 'rekindling' i guess, with someone that uve felt hasnt been in ur life lately. because u just feel happy wen ur reminded that u have such a person in ur life.
this person that im thinking of right now-i hope that we do reconnect a bit more, like we used to before. i loved those long conversations about anything and everything and when we would tell each other the pains and joys in our lives and just trust each other. its not that i trust them any less, it would just be great to have those moments again =] they brightened my day, or in some cases darkened them, but all the same they were very...fruitful and interesting lol
but hey i know were still gud without them =] that hopefully wont change.
i love that feeling of 'rekindling' i guess, with someone that uve felt hasnt been in ur life lately. because u just feel happy wen ur reminded that u have such a person in ur life.
this person that im thinking of right now-i hope that we do reconnect a bit more, like we used to before. i loved those long conversations about anything and everything and when we would tell each other the pains and joys in our lives and just trust each other. its not that i trust them any less, it would just be great to have those moments again =] they brightened my day, or in some cases darkened them, but all the same they were very...fruitful and interesting lol
but hey i know were still gud without them =] that hopefully wont change.
day 13-someone you wish could forgive you
heeeeeeeerm...actually i cant think of anyone...i dont think anyone hates me...? lol =]
no rlly i cant think of anything for this blog o.o
SOOOOO instead ill just post up some pretty pictures from deviant lol
no rlly i cant think of anything for this blog o.o
SOOOOO instead ill just post up some pretty pictures from deviant lol
day 12-he person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
i was sick hence the gap. but now im back =] ok here we go.
alright, kinda like cindy sed, i like to think that there is gud in everyone.because there is =] plus i really cant keep grudges unless its something epicly life changing. and even then i dont really hate a person because...i mean hate is such a strong word. i know i use it all the time for ppl like ms. blundell lol and ms. richards-but i dont actually HATE them, themselves, their spirit, their heart, their actions. i might hate my bro a little tho, but thats too complicated to be classified as real hate. so i wont for now.
i use the word hate rlly casually just out of frustration and to show my dislike for something/someone. but if ur rlly talking about hating someone for who they are or what they did-somehow in my head i think of all sides and i guess u cant rlly hate someone if u see any sense in what they do. does that make sense?
i dont hate anyone but i have highly disliked people. it never lasts tho. its neva a burning, sensation of hate lol as for the person that caused me the most pain, i cant think of any one person that has caused me so much pain that i jsut think of their name immediately for this blog. i highly dislike those people for the fact that they did cause me, or people around me, a lot of pain. but life is full of those people and im not about to go around hating on them all lol accepting, or understanding, for me, is more useful than hating. its also more healthy and just smarter.
if u think about it, if u hate someone, its just gonna b a thorn in ur side and affect ur life negatively. ull start thinking things and making assumptions and judgements and thats never gud. ye i know there are those people who may deserve that for what they did, but even if u did just hate them eternally, u couldnt live ur own life like u wanted to. im not telling anyone to do anything, hey if u hate someone and with gud reason, go ahead and do so, thats ur issue lol but personally hating isnt something thats very long term. im talking months or years. maybe in my life, as more stuff happens, ill hate someone who rlly does get on my nerves or is just a jerk...lol i can only imagine.
alright, kinda like cindy sed, i like to think that there is gud in everyone.because there is =] plus i really cant keep grudges unless its something epicly life changing. and even then i dont really hate a person because...i mean hate is such a strong word. i know i use it all the time for ppl like ms. blundell lol and ms. richards-but i dont actually HATE them, themselves, their spirit, their heart, their actions. i might hate my bro a little tho, but thats too complicated to be classified as real hate. so i wont for now.
i use the word hate rlly casually just out of frustration and to show my dislike for something/someone. but if ur rlly talking about hating someone for who they are or what they did-somehow in my head i think of all sides and i guess u cant rlly hate someone if u see any sense in what they do. does that make sense?
i dont hate anyone but i have highly disliked people. it never lasts tho. its neva a burning, sensation of hate lol as for the person that caused me the most pain, i cant think of any one person that has caused me so much pain that i jsut think of their name immediately for this blog. i highly dislike those people for the fact that they did cause me, or people around me, a lot of pain. but life is full of those people and im not about to go around hating on them all lol accepting, or understanding, for me, is more useful than hating. its also more healthy and just smarter.
if u think about it, if u hate someone, its just gonna b a thorn in ur side and affect ur life negatively. ull start thinking things and making assumptions and judgements and thats never gud. ye i know there are those people who may deserve that for what they did, but even if u did just hate them eternally, u couldnt live ur own life like u wanted to. im not telling anyone to do anything, hey if u hate someone and with gud reason, go ahead and do so, thats ur issue lol but personally hating isnt something thats very long term. im talking months or years. maybe in my life, as more stuff happens, ill hate someone who rlly does get on my nerves or is just a jerk...lol i can only imagine.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
day 11-a deceased person you wish you could talk to
my grandpa passed away 2 years ago. it was of lung cancer. it was sad. first time someone had died in my life...my grandpa spent a lot of time with me when i was a toddler in china, before i moved to australia at 5 yrs old.
i remember him taking me to and from ballet lessons and that on the taxi home, he would always have peanuts, or a lollipo, or something exciting for a 5 year old. i remember when he didnt have them, i would get really upset for like 10 min like a toddler does, but it would b all gud agn wen he somehow made me smile. i remember how he was a rlly gud story teller and that he would make up all these stories all the time for my bro and i. one was about a mouse who was looking for someone i think...another was about a bear who lived in a cave and had no toilet paper lol cos bears used toilet paper =]
he would always teach me short poems and famous rhymes and i would remember all of them and we would walk around saying them together. when i went back to china a few years ago, i remember how there were rows of big trees across the road to my aunties house, on the edge of a river. we climbed so many trees, and we climbed up mountains. my grandpa used to love climbing mountains, he would just keep walking on and on and we would all have to catch up to him.
he lived through the times when china got invaded by japan and felt strongly about the war. he was in the army his entire life, in the navy i think. and my god the amount he writes. he used to keep journals and wrote basically everyday, i went into his room and on one side was just stacks and stacks of paper and books that hed written throughout his life. im guessing thats where i got my love of writing? ye i dont rlly write anymore, but i used to love writing all the time =] i only feel real regret when i realize im prob not ever gonna learn how to read and write in chinese properly cos then id never be able to read the hundreds of pages my grandpa wrote. when he was sick with lung cancer , he wrote a letter to me and my brother, it was 4 pages long, written on thin, delicate paper that reminded me of him and just lines and lines of beautiful cursive chinese. i have it in my desk. i just feel heavy wen i remember that i cant read it...
the day i was gonna go on the flight back to australia from my trip to china few years ago, he called me into his room and told me about the pages and pages of writing he had wrote about his life. he told me that the name of his book was named after a famous mountain in szechuan ,where he grew up and told me to not forget it and showed me a picture of it on the map. i really cant remember it now. agh i feel so sad.
i also remember that wen he'd heard id got into state finalists of a writing competion, he encouraged me to one day write something that would be published in a newspaper. i promised myself that that would be one of the things id do before i die. of course, i miss him.
to prevent my mood from falling any further, ima stop this post right here. well that turned out to be more emotional than id thought...
i remember him taking me to and from ballet lessons and that on the taxi home, he would always have peanuts, or a lollipo, or something exciting for a 5 year old. i remember when he didnt have them, i would get really upset for like 10 min like a toddler does, but it would b all gud agn wen he somehow made me smile. i remember how he was a rlly gud story teller and that he would make up all these stories all the time for my bro and i. one was about a mouse who was looking for someone i think...another was about a bear who lived in a cave and had no toilet paper lol cos bears used toilet paper =]
he would always teach me short poems and famous rhymes and i would remember all of them and we would walk around saying them together. when i went back to china a few years ago, i remember how there were rows of big trees across the road to my aunties house, on the edge of a river. we climbed so many trees, and we climbed up mountains. my grandpa used to love climbing mountains, he would just keep walking on and on and we would all have to catch up to him.
he lived through the times when china got invaded by japan and felt strongly about the war. he was in the army his entire life, in the navy i think. and my god the amount he writes. he used to keep journals and wrote basically everyday, i went into his room and on one side was just stacks and stacks of paper and books that hed written throughout his life. im guessing thats where i got my love of writing? ye i dont rlly write anymore, but i used to love writing all the time =] i only feel real regret when i realize im prob not ever gonna learn how to read and write in chinese properly cos then id never be able to read the hundreds of pages my grandpa wrote. when he was sick with lung cancer , he wrote a letter to me and my brother, it was 4 pages long, written on thin, delicate paper that reminded me of him and just lines and lines of beautiful cursive chinese. i have it in my desk. i just feel heavy wen i remember that i cant read it...
the day i was gonna go on the flight back to australia from my trip to china few years ago, he called me into his room and told me about the pages and pages of writing he had wrote about his life. he told me that the name of his book was named after a famous mountain in szechuan ,where he grew up and told me to not forget it and showed me a picture of it on the map. i really cant remember it now. agh i feel so sad.
i also remember that wen he'd heard id got into state finalists of a writing competion, he encouraged me to one day write something that would be published in a newspaper. i promised myself that that would be one of the things id do before i die. of course, i miss him.
to prevent my mood from falling any further, ima stop this post right here. well that turned out to be more emotional than id thought...
day 10-someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to
there isnt anyone in mind for this topic, but if i hadto pick, it'd prob be a friend i dont see as often as id like to, like whitney. ye she lives like 2 streets away from me, but we come home from skool at different times and we just hardly see each other anymore o.o
it would be gud to just go back to primary school and be as relaxed as we were then when the most stressful thing id ever encountered was having THREE assignments at the same time lol
someone else id like to talk to would prob be my cousin and auntie in china. like i sed before, my cousin is like a sister that i neva had, and my auntie is really just an amazing person. i hate how we live on different sides of the world. QQ doesnt do much cos u cant rlly say much in chinese and im noob at typing it lol the phone also isnt as gud as just seeing them, cos it just wouldnt be complete without being wherever they are.
i cant think of anything else to say for this lol so yes that is my tiny little blog for now
it would be gud to just go back to primary school and be as relaxed as we were then when the most stressful thing id ever encountered was having THREE assignments at the same time lol
someone else id like to talk to would prob be my cousin and auntie in china. like i sed before, my cousin is like a sister that i neva had, and my auntie is really just an amazing person. i hate how we live on different sides of the world. QQ doesnt do much cos u cant rlly say much in chinese and im noob at typing it lol the phone also isnt as gud as just seeing them, cos it just wouldnt be complete without being wherever they are.
i cant think of anything else to say for this lol so yes that is my tiny little blog for now
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
day 9-someone you want to meet
I don’t have anyone right now that i wanna meet. I don’t rlly think about this lol but if id have to choose, i usually just think of some famous. Such as coco chanel <3 ive done her for a few assignments and stuff and shes just rlly...like someone id like to meet.
First of all, chanel fashion is like omg *drool even tho its expensive. But its so pwetty =] after everything ive read about her, shes just such a strong, independent, ambitious person. A woman in a man’s world. She did wat she wanted to and man it looked gud. Her love life was also like omg u lucky girl...had such gud guys going after her lol jeez
i just find her inspirational, she started as an abandoned child then a dressmaker, thn a hat maker, then finally a fashion designer. she smoked like a man, wore pearls better than any woman and designed like a god. id b pretty intimidated i guess if i met her, but shes always been someone i look up to. classics man, little black dress, the skirt suit, pearls, epic black and white, dressing like a man but looking hot at the same time. now that i think about it, so much modern day fashion started with chanel. her fashion morals r so true and just efficient. her stuff was always comfortable, simple and classy with no massive butterfly broches or rows and rows of frill like other stuff at her time.
the movie 'coco chanel' is also rlly worth watching. i blogged bout it ages ago but srsly, its gud. so emotional but the clothes, the cinematograaphy and acting was just like a fairytale. its the latest one-go watch it.
of course these days i obviously cant meet chanel, but i def will always worship her style. heaps of my own style i guess is from her. chanel ftw.
First of all, chanel fashion is like omg *drool even tho its expensive. But its so pwetty =] after everything ive read about her, shes just such a strong, independent, ambitious person. A woman in a man’s world. She did wat she wanted to and man it looked gud. Her love life was also like omg u lucky girl...had such gud guys going after her lol jeez
i just find her inspirational, she started as an abandoned child then a dressmaker, thn a hat maker, then finally a fashion designer. she smoked like a man, wore pearls better than any woman and designed like a god. id b pretty intimidated i guess if i met her, but shes always been someone i look up to. classics man, little black dress, the skirt suit, pearls, epic black and white, dressing like a man but looking hot at the same time. now that i think about it, so much modern day fashion started with chanel. her fashion morals r so true and just efficient. her stuff was always comfortable, simple and classy with no massive butterfly broches or rows and rows of frill like other stuff at her time.
the movie 'coco chanel' is also rlly worth watching. i blogged bout it ages ago but srsly, its gud. so emotional but the clothes, the cinematograaphy and acting was just like a fairytale. its the latest one-go watch it.
of course these days i obviously cant meet chanel, but i def will always worship her style. heaps of my own style i guess is from her. chanel ftw.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
china2010~
dont tell me this is late. cos i know that =] half u ppl prob wont even remember taht i went to china in the holz. well ive been putting off all the fotos and blogging till now. lots of fotos :D these are just the people and the places. the FOOD will b in a separate blog haha cos its just so amazing it deserves its own blog <3 this will be minimal writing, maximum photo attack. the above photo is prob one of the rarer times u see my bro and i in such a relaxed, luvo mood.
35deg+ every day, so going to the pool helps. chinas so conservative, bikins rnt that common...
my cousin =] without my heels, shes same height as me and shes only 12
omg love the night life. this is xiamen, fujina i.e. mainland
azn maccas woooo~
there were so many stores of wat we in australia call super fobby, cute azn fashion =] omg so pretty lol
met a new friend~
airport o.o
oh ye this is some empresses hat thing lol
going up and down the great wall, theres actually a ride that takes u most of the way (Y)
beijing is smoggy. this is tiananmen square and u see the sky here? its like that all the time...theres no blue ever =[
forbidden city.
olympics-birds nest and ice cube.
idk where this was. but it was pretty
that was like 1/10th of all my fotos, not even including food. agh i miss china eeeeh. so much now =[ so much happened, u wouldnt believe. sigh. it really was epic.
day 8-your favourite internet friend
i dont have much to say here. i rlly dont. cos i actually tlk to most of my friends face to face as well.
closest thing is this guy i met in china thats my cousin's bf's cousin. which ive tlked about somewhere before...we were gonna meet and stuff but turns out his personality is not that great lol i only have his QQ (azn msn) and ye thats it.
there was this other guy who added my cousin in china cos shed put her hometown as sydney. he sed he was new to sydney and wanted to make friends, so hes just looking for randoms i guess. my cousin told him to add me, who rlly was in sydney, and we started tlking. but that didnt last long cos his english is pretty fobby. like srsly he cant speak english, not rlly. and his QQ pm is 'i very want to find a girlfriend' ._.
ive neva got into the idea of internet friends cos i dont meet many ppl online, i meet them thru mutual friends, face to face, the traditional way =] so rlly this topic is pretty boring for me.
oh ye did i mention i slept ova at chias. i think i did. well we went to bed at 5.40am lol and woke up at 9. it was so bad. im so tired. this is ridiculous. commerce is retarded. but it was a gud sleepova (Y)
closest thing is this guy i met in china thats my cousin's bf's cousin. which ive tlked about somewhere before...we were gonna meet and stuff but turns out his personality is not that great lol i only have his QQ (azn msn) and ye thats it.
there was this other guy who added my cousin in china cos shed put her hometown as sydney. he sed he was new to sydney and wanted to make friends, so hes just looking for randoms i guess. my cousin told him to add me, who rlly was in sydney, and we started tlking. but that didnt last long cos his english is pretty fobby. like srsly he cant speak english, not rlly. and his QQ pm is 'i very want to find a girlfriend' ._.
ive neva got into the idea of internet friends cos i dont meet many ppl online, i meet them thru mutual friends, face to face, the traditional way =] so rlly this topic is pretty boring for me.
oh ye did i mention i slept ova at chias. i think i did. well we went to bed at 5.40am lol and woke up at 9. it was so bad. im so tired. this is ridiculous. commerce is retarded. but it was a gud sleepova (Y)
day 7-your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
omg laptop blogger is deleting all my frikin drafts. so here it goes AGN. i was at chias last night for sleepova and decided to blog at 2am in the morning, so technically this morning but oh well same thing =]
note:in future, im not gonna bother explaining y posts r late. we all know its the thought that counts~
so im guessing we all know who will jin is? yes? ok. i dont know if he should feel flattered or targeted for getting most of a blog about him. so idk how to start this blog. hence i asked chia for her opinon last night and she gave me the most vague, unhelpful answer ever. so ill do this like i would b wen i talk about any other person.
i like how we are still friends. i like how we dont hate each other like those stereotype ex's do. i like how i had a few of my firsts~ i like how i learned to be less naive and more...logical i guess. i like how we had our great times being retarded. i like how in many aspects he was rlly innocent. i like how he could make me feel better if im down, and still does. i like how wen i look back at it all i realize how much ive changed for the better.
i dont like how there was heaps of stuff that happened which i really wished didnt. i dont like how i knew so little about it all that i just went with it. i dont like how i had a few of my firsts =[ cos ill never have them agn lol i dont like how now that i think about the future topics in this 30 day challenge, a few of them apply to the same person as well and i hafta write about this agn.
the first few months were rlly new to me and awkward, but sweet and innocent at the same time. well thats wat i thought. now that i look back on it, i was gud while it lasted, until all that complicated, yukky, gunky stuff came about and it just started going downhill lol man that stuff at the end was messed up. i remember feeling like it couldnt get worse, and then it got worse haha bad feeling that is.
everyones first relationship they have will stay with them forever and it always definately teaches them something important. i see it like, if gud things happen, remember them for being gud, if bad things happen remember them for the experience and the fact that u could learn from that. but dont forget it. cos everything that happens in these lil teenage crushes is gonna be a reflection of who u are in the future =D
thats about the only ex ive had in my life lol im so unexperienced x] but hey of course im glad that it happened~ wow i read my blog and just realized how personal it is lol it feels weird...but i guess the point of the challenge is also to write about these things we dont usually discuss.
note:in future, im not gonna bother explaining y posts r late. we all know its the thought that counts~
so im guessing we all know who will jin is? yes? ok. i dont know if he should feel flattered or targeted for getting most of a blog about him. so idk how to start this blog. hence i asked chia for her opinon last night and she gave me the most vague, unhelpful answer ever. so ill do this like i would b wen i talk about any other person.
i like how we are still friends. i like how we dont hate each other like those stereotype ex's do. i like how i had a few of my firsts~ i like how i learned to be less naive and more...logical i guess. i like how we had our great times being retarded. i like how in many aspects he was rlly innocent. i like how he could make me feel better if im down, and still does. i like how wen i look back at it all i realize how much ive changed for the better.
i dont like how there was heaps of stuff that happened which i really wished didnt. i dont like how i knew so little about it all that i just went with it. i dont like how i had a few of my firsts =[ cos ill never have them agn lol i dont like how now that i think about the future topics in this 30 day challenge, a few of them apply to the same person as well and i hafta write about this agn.
the first few months were rlly new to me and awkward, but sweet and innocent at the same time. well thats wat i thought. now that i look back on it, i was gud while it lasted, until all that complicated, yukky, gunky stuff came about and it just started going downhill lol man that stuff at the end was messed up. i remember feeling like it couldnt get worse, and then it got worse haha bad feeling that is.
everyones first relationship they have will stay with them forever and it always definately teaches them something important. i see it like, if gud things happen, remember them for being gud, if bad things happen remember them for the experience and the fact that u could learn from that. but dont forget it. cos everything that happens in these lil teenage crushes is gonna be a reflection of who u are in the future =D
thats about the only ex ive had in my life lol im so unexperienced x] but hey of course im glad that it happened~ wow i read my blog and just realized how personal it is lol it feels weird...but i guess the point of the challenge is also to write about these things we dont usually discuss.
Friday, August 6, 2010
day 6-a stranger
Hm a stranger. I don’t really keep track of strangers...can’t really think of anyone in particular...oh i know lol i know =]
Well u see, the only stranger i can think of that i see from time to time is this guy in my building ;] no hes not our age, hes like uni? Or early 20’s. Some ppl already know bout him cos ive gushed to them about him lol the best way i can describe him is: ok u know that ugly Edward Cullen actor? Yes Robert Pattinson. The one that no sane person can figure out y he got the part. Well this guy is exactly as Stephanie meyer describes Edward lol if only he could act...he’d actually b pretty perfect for the part aaaagh sigh =D
The whole, pale skin, angular bones, massively tall, relatively thin and of course the bronze wind-swept hair haha his hair is, i swear, exactly the same as edward cullen’s. I wouldn’t b going on about this guy if he wasn’t so freakishly close to Edward ._. and to top it off he has that air about him that looks like he came from the 19oo’s *GASP* oh no he doesn’t. And oh my freakin god he carries a leather, antiquey suitcase/bag. Everything about him is cool and sophisticated. He can actually pull off leather jacket and skinny jeans without looked like hes trying to lol and he looks frikin gud in them...oh ye and his face is gud looking too lol
Alright my gushing is over. My creepily accurate description of this guy stops here =] hes just one of those ppl that i know i will never meet or talk to, so i can just go ahead and assume things about him lol if only there were more ppl like him on this planet...
Well u see, the only stranger i can think of that i see from time to time is this guy in my building ;] no hes not our age, hes like uni? Or early 20’s. Some ppl already know bout him cos ive gushed to them about him lol the best way i can describe him is: ok u know that ugly Edward Cullen actor? Yes Robert Pattinson. The one that no sane person can figure out y he got the part. Well this guy is exactly as Stephanie meyer describes Edward lol if only he could act...he’d actually b pretty perfect for the part aaaagh sigh =D
The whole, pale skin, angular bones, massively tall, relatively thin and of course the bronze wind-swept hair haha his hair is, i swear, exactly the same as edward cullen’s. I wouldn’t b going on about this guy if he wasn’t so freakishly close to Edward ._. and to top it off he has that air about him that looks like he came from the 19oo’s *GASP* oh no he doesn’t. And oh my freakin god he carries a leather, antiquey suitcase/bag. Everything about him is cool and sophisticated. He can actually pull off leather jacket and skinny jeans without looked like hes trying to lol and he looks frikin gud in them...oh ye and his face is gud looking too lol
Alright my gushing is over. My creepily accurate description of this guy stops here =] hes just one of those ppl that i know i will never meet or talk to, so i can just go ahead and assume things about him lol if only there were more ppl like him on this planet...
day 5-your dreams
Day 5-your dreams
Ok just to clarify. I did NOT fail the 30 day challenge by not posting yesterday lol blogger hates me and deleted my draft for this blog not once but twice last night. So i gave up and decided to write it once agn today sigh chia is my witness and can prove this =]
So anyway. I know ive always been competitive and i can be independent, but ive never been especially ambitious for anything major. Nothing like jobs or careers or exactly how many children i want in exactly the perfect house that my imagination has conjured. My dream job would be something like working in a fashion magazine, or being an accessories buyer. Something that would let me learn useful life skills, as well as get connections and travel. Something that i would enjoy doing for years and years. Of course the chance of me getting such a perfect job is pretty slim, so im not rlly going for it lol
Everyone around me is telling me that school is most important right now, and it is, but its just the warm up that gives u options in case u don’t get ur dream job =] apart from anything academic, i dream of doing wat i love. I love to dance, and im really happy that i have something so amazing to turn to, its an expression of anything i want. I don’t know how my world would feel like without it o.o i wanna be keep up my dancing my entire life, or at least never stop doing it <3
If only all dreams could come true.
I dream of travelling the world with my friends during gap year (which is more like 6 months). I dream the cliché dream of a house, a perfect guy and maybe kids. I dream of money =] I dream of shopping sprees full of fashion, shoes, bags and jewellery. I dream of owning a dog in my own apartment. I dream one day in the future, moving out and getting my own apartment. I dream of a cute lil BMW Mini Cooper. I dream of having perfect skin always lol I dream of never-ending quantities of chocolate. But most importantly, I dream of my future, in which i’d like to see all u people reading this blog still in, and having great relationships with my friends and family. Hehe i love u guys, so much so that i decided to put u all in my dream lol
Ok just to clarify. I did NOT fail the 30 day challenge by not posting yesterday lol blogger hates me and deleted my draft for this blog not once but twice last night. So i gave up and decided to write it once agn today sigh chia is my witness and can prove this =]
So anyway. I know ive always been competitive and i can be independent, but ive never been especially ambitious for anything major. Nothing like jobs or careers or exactly how many children i want in exactly the perfect house that my imagination has conjured. My dream job would be something like working in a fashion magazine, or being an accessories buyer. Something that would let me learn useful life skills, as well as get connections and travel. Something that i would enjoy doing for years and years. Of course the chance of me getting such a perfect job is pretty slim, so im not rlly going for it lol
Everyone around me is telling me that school is most important right now, and it is, but its just the warm up that gives u options in case u don’t get ur dream job =] apart from anything academic, i dream of doing wat i love. I love to dance, and im really happy that i have something so amazing to turn to, its an expression of anything i want. I don’t know how my world would feel like without it o.o i wanna be keep up my dancing my entire life, or at least never stop doing it <3
If only all dreams could come true.
I dream of travelling the world with my friends during gap year (which is more like 6 months). I dream the cliché dream of a house, a perfect guy and maybe kids. I dream of money =] I dream of shopping sprees full of fashion, shoes, bags and jewellery. I dream of owning a dog in my own apartment. I dream one day in the future, moving out and getting my own apartment. I dream of a cute lil BMW Mini Cooper. I dream of having perfect skin always lol I dream of never-ending quantities of chocolate. But most importantly, I dream of my future, in which i’d like to see all u people reading this blog still in, and having great relationships with my friends and family. Hehe i love u guys, so much so that i decided to put u all in my dream lol
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
day 3-your siblings(or closest relative)
i hope that u all know who my brother is. or should, if ur a decent friend lol its reeky, yes reeky. hes in yr 8, is already 179cm and is frikin annoying.
sometimes, a lot of the time, he just feels like an object in the background that u know is there and will stay there, which is highly unnecessary and useless. yes im harsh. with my brother, i always have been. for about 1% of the time, when he really needs me, and i know when those times are, i can be caring and older sisterly. but for the other 99% i can assure u that he is the vain of my existance.
siblings sometimes feel like their sole reason on this earth is to annoy you and make everything difficult. no srsly...i swear he just provokes me to the point of madness, we used to fully rage and fight and attack each other physically every single day. it was madness. i hated him so so much lol i didn't know how i would live like that everyday, shouting pointlessly and crying all the time. nowadays, we still fight like everyday lol but we dont bash each other or cry. ye well, he cries sometimes >.> just take it like a man. he has more anger issues than i do. he is the BIGGEST goody two shoes i have ever met. and ppl think im innocent...its like he never does anything majorly out of line and cant think for himself. hey hes only 14, i know, but i dont remember any of us being so clingy and dependent wen we were 14. jeezus instead of researching himself, or looking up a dictionary, he has to ask me all the small insignificant details of his own work that he doesnt understand. things like the meanings of easy words. every 10 min. it gets annoying >.>
ugh my whole life ive always wanted a sister, prob cos ive had a brother the entire time. but sisters bond better. the only gud thing i get from having a brother is that i can wear his oversized man shirts and add belts and necklaces and make them part of my wardrobe (Y)
on the other hand, i have a lil 12 year old cousin in china and shes like a sister i never had. excpet we only get to see each other wen i goto china, which isnt very often. for one, we can have fun together and we respect each other. thats a gud start. sigh my mum ses that ill learn to relate to my bro wen were both older, and value his existence more. i cant see that happening.
lol so yes that is my fully negative overview of my sibling. hope u learned something (Y)
sometimes, a lot of the time, he just feels like an object in the background that u know is there and will stay there, which is highly unnecessary and useless. yes im harsh. with my brother, i always have been. for about 1% of the time, when he really needs me, and i know when those times are, i can be caring and older sisterly. but for the other 99% i can assure u that he is the vain of my existance.
siblings sometimes feel like their sole reason on this earth is to annoy you and make everything difficult. no srsly...i swear he just provokes me to the point of madness, we used to fully rage and fight and attack each other physically every single day. it was madness. i hated him so so much lol i didn't know how i would live like that everyday, shouting pointlessly and crying all the time. nowadays, we still fight like everyday lol but we dont bash each other or cry. ye well, he cries sometimes >.> just take it like a man. he has more anger issues than i do. he is the BIGGEST goody two shoes i have ever met. and ppl think im innocent...its like he never does anything majorly out of line and cant think for himself. hey hes only 14, i know, but i dont remember any of us being so clingy and dependent wen we were 14. jeezus instead of researching himself, or looking up a dictionary, he has to ask me all the small insignificant details of his own work that he doesnt understand. things like the meanings of easy words. every 10 min. it gets annoying >.>
ugh my whole life ive always wanted a sister, prob cos ive had a brother the entire time. but sisters bond better. the only gud thing i get from having a brother is that i can wear his oversized man shirts and add belts and necklaces and make them part of my wardrobe (Y)
on the other hand, i have a lil 12 year old cousin in china and shes like a sister i never had. excpet we only get to see each other wen i goto china, which isnt very often. for one, we can have fun together and we respect each other. thats a gud start. sigh my mum ses that ill learn to relate to my bro wen were both older, and value his existence more. i cant see that happening.
lol so yes that is my fully negative overview of my sibling. hope u learned something (Y)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
day 3-your parents
omg my parents r so typical azn. school is number one. maths is crucial. cheap is always good.
lol i dont have the best relationship with my parents. its decent i guess but there are so many potholes. if u take the time to notice, nobody's family is all good, there are always problems somewhere, and its more often than u notice.
home is a weird place for me. sometimes i just hate going home but other times i think my bed is the place i love the most =]
i dont rely on my parents as much now, its like as we grow up, we want to rely on them less and dont want to interact with them as much. my mum is rlly rlly over-protective, and always thinking about negative things that prob wont happen anyway. she srsly worries so much, i dont know how she can think of all those things to worry about.
of course the good things include...how we can shop or watch movies. and i get clothes for free lol and how i know she worries for a reason, even if it gets annoying haha
also, i can definately say i get my childishness and tendecency to laugh histerically from her. cos were both rlly just children =]
my dad. is rlly just my dad. nothing much to say there o.o
lol i dont have the best relationship with my parents. its decent i guess but there are so many potholes. if u take the time to notice, nobody's family is all good, there are always problems somewhere, and its more often than u notice.
home is a weird place for me. sometimes i just hate going home but other times i think my bed is the place i love the most =]
i dont rely on my parents as much now, its like as we grow up, we want to rely on them less and dont want to interact with them as much. my mum is rlly rlly over-protective, and always thinking about negative things that prob wont happen anyway. she srsly worries so much, i dont know how she can think of all those things to worry about.
of course the good things include...how we can shop or watch movies. and i get clothes for free lol and how i know she worries for a reason, even if it gets annoying haha
also, i can definately say i get my childishness and tendecency to laugh histerically from her. cos were both rlly just children =]
my dad. is rlly just my dad. nothing much to say there o.o
Monday, August 2, 2010
day 2-your crush
im doing day 2 today cos technically, it is day 2. cindy had this thing planned out to go from the 1st to the 30th of august and it would all work out fine, according to the date. so yes day 2-my crush.
oh no, you know what, im sorry to disappoint but i really dont have a crush right now LOL i know how much u guys love reading about personal stuff such as crushes. but ye. i currently do not have a crush =]
so INSTEAD. i shall write about my crushes in general. in the past of course.
hmmmmm lemme count them...ok. the number exceeds 3 but is less than 5. they were all guys. cathy doesnt count cos its cathy. she gets her own complicated category. oh ye i had this cute lil yr 1 romance going on that i remember...he was the first guy to kiss me (no not on the lips) *batters lashes no not really but he shall be forever unnamed because im just that cool.
uuuuum haha ye of course i got butterflies all those times i had crushes, and was really just a lil girl. so naive sigh lol i think we all were, or still are. it really was good to be so innocent and know nothing =] that way you can be all wide-eyed and carefree all the time. for the time they lasted, i thought way too much about unimportant stuff that girls with crushes think about haha weren't we all like that? and yes i did the whole, trying hard to look decent when im around them etc =]
for now nothing major is happening on the topic of crushes in my life, and i dont see anything happening for a while o.o but OHOHOHOHOH
OH
OH
i bet formal will uncover a few crushes of other ppl's ;]
oh no, you know what, im sorry to disappoint but i really dont have a crush right now LOL i know how much u guys love reading about personal stuff such as crushes. but ye. i currently do not have a crush =]
so INSTEAD. i shall write about my crushes in general. in the past of course.
hmmmmm lemme count them...ok. the number exceeds 3 but is less than 5. they were all guys. cathy doesnt count cos its cathy. she gets her own complicated category. oh ye i had this cute lil yr 1 romance going on that i remember...he was the first guy to kiss me (no not on the lips) *batters lashes no not really but he shall be forever unnamed because im just that cool.
uuuuum haha ye of course i got butterflies all those times i had crushes, and was really just a lil girl. so naive sigh lol i think we all were, or still are. it really was good to be so innocent and know nothing =] that way you can be all wide-eyed and carefree all the time. for the time they lasted, i thought way too much about unimportant stuff that girls with crushes think about haha weren't we all like that? and yes i did the whole, trying hard to look decent when im around them etc =]
for now nothing major is happening on the topic of crushes in my life, and i dont see anything happening for a while o.o but OHOHOHOHOH
OH
OH
i bet formal will uncover a few crushes of other ppl's ;]
day 1-best friend
i always thought that there was no point in having only one appointed best friend. so i have many. in a way, sometimes, i think that sometimes, if you're that good friends ith each other, you ont need a label of 'best friend' for it to be true. not saying it but definately knowing it, makes it that much more special. mine are all of course different in personality, but they all have those important traits that make best friends worthy of being best friends.
theres the typical, always be there for you thing. thats a necessity.
i can always be myself, truly ad honestly, around my best friends, and we can have the most retarded screwed up times together ^^ some of them, i can share clothes, music and changing rooms with. you know who you are. and others, they end up knowing what i didnt even intend to tell them. its like they all have magical powers and can predict what you're thinking.
its a given that you always lend them money. and i omg i scab so frikin much haha food included.
these are the people that, when something happens, or i just feel like i need someone, are always the first names and faces that come to mind, no question. its when they do something small or otherwise insignificant to other people, but mean so much to you personally, that i feel grateful to have friends like these. this bunch of people that im talking about, one of them can be so frikin annoying and just other-worldly frustrating to the point of explosion, and another just never ceases to dissapoint in weird things to say, but hey i love them all so much and i prob wont stop doing that.
i dont know what i'd do without you all =] <3
theres the typical, always be there for you thing. thats a necessity.
i can always be myself, truly ad honestly, around my best friends, and we can have the most retarded screwed up times together ^^ some of them, i can share clothes, music and changing rooms with. you know who you are. and others, they end up knowing what i didnt even intend to tell them. its like they all have magical powers and can predict what you're thinking.
its a given that you always lend them money. and i omg i scab so frikin much haha food included.
these are the people that, when something happens, or i just feel like i need someone, are always the first names and faces that come to mind, no question. its when they do something small or otherwise insignificant to other people, but mean so much to you personally, that i feel grateful to have friends like these. this bunch of people that im talking about, one of them can be so frikin annoying and just other-worldly frustrating to the point of explosion, and another just never ceases to dissapoint in weird things to say, but hey i love them all so much and i prob wont stop doing that.
i dont know what i'd do without you all =] <3
me too
just to let you know, im doing the cindy challenge too ^^ i only felt the necessity of this blog since chia did it ._. oh ye and lizzy sed to change my layout. i shall. soon.