omg laptop blogger is deleting all my frikin drafts. so here it goes AGN. i was at chias last night for sleepova and decided to blog at 2am in the morning, so technically this morning but oh well same thing =]
note:in future, im not gonna bother explaining y posts r late. we all know its the thought that counts~
so im guessing we all know who will jin is? yes? ok. i dont know if he should feel flattered or targeted for getting most of a blog about him. so idk how to start this blog. hence i asked chia for her opinon last night and she gave me the most vague, unhelpful answer ever. so ill do this like i would b wen i talk about any other person.
i like how we are still friends. i like how we dont hate each other like those stereotype ex's do. i like how i had a few of my firsts~ i like how i learned to be less naive and more...logical i guess. i like how we had our great times being retarded. i like how in many aspects he was rlly innocent. i like how he could make me feel better if im down, and still does. i like how wen i look back at it all i realize how much ive changed for the better.
i dont like how there was heaps of stuff that happened which i really wished didnt. i dont like how i knew so little about it all that i just went with it. i dont like how i had a few of my firsts =[ cos ill never have them agn lol i dont like how now that i think about the future topics in this 30 day challenge, a few of them apply to the same person as well and i hafta write about this agn.
the first few months were rlly new to me and awkward, but sweet and innocent at the same time. well thats wat i thought. now that i look back on it, i was gud while it lasted, until all that complicated, yukky, gunky stuff came about and it just started going downhill lol man that stuff at the end was messed up. i remember feeling like it couldnt get worse, and then it got worse haha bad feeling that is.
everyones first relationship they have will stay with them forever and it always definately teaches them something important. i see it like, if gud things happen, remember them for being gud, if bad things happen remember them for the experience and the fact that u could learn from that. but dont forget it. cos everything that happens in these lil teenage crushes is gonna be a reflection of who u are in the future =D
thats about the only ex ive had in my life lol im so unexperienced x] but hey of course im glad that it happened~ wow i read my blog and just realized how personal it is lol it feels weird...but i guess the point of the challenge is also to write about these things we dont usually discuss.
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