day 18-the person that you wish you could be

Theres obviously the perfect person scenario, perfect personality, perfect friends, perfect family, perfect love life, perfect grades in school, perfect relationship with siblings. but that person doesn’t exist in me, or many people in general actually. Because perfect is subjective and once we reach it, therell be something else missing.

sometimes i wonder if i was in someone else’s position, meeting myself for the first time, would i like me? There are times when i know i definitely would not like me, i would probably highly dislike me lol

dear me,
i wish i could have less split ends. I wish my temper would stop getting in the way. I wish i could be more confident about myself. I wish i had frikin fabulous skin forever and ever. I wish i would stop procrastinating when i really shouldn’t be. I wish i had no problems whatsoever in school. I wish i had unlimited amounts of money. I wish i actually liked my brother. i wish i could go out whenever for whatever time. I wish i was the kind of person who is highly ambitious and self-dependant. I wish i had heaps of connections. I wish i could be myself all the time. i wish i didn’t get nervous about things like speeches and performances and interviews. I wish i could get along with anyone fine. I wish i could give more back to people. I wish i could keep doing ballet. I wish i hadn’t stopped right before i was going on pointe-that rlly annoys me. I wish i had more time for myself. I wish i wouldn’t be afraid of stuff like rollercoasters and horror movies. I wish sometimes i could be more ladylike lol i wish i could be the kind of person that always stood up for themselves. I wish i could stop impulse buying things that i regret buying later. I WISH I COULD STOP BEING LATE FOR SCHOOL EVERYDAY LOL
Wow thats a long list. But its not even half of what i wish i could be. I sound so demanding haha but its true =[ ill b happy if any number of those things came true.